Merry Christmas Cailean

Dec 25th, 2004 Posted in Free Form | No Comments »

Merry Christmas Cailean. We miss you very much. You pictures are all around our house and your memory is always in our heart. Take good care of your grandparents up there with you and of course Susie.

Diane Travis and family

Merry Christmas K

Dec 25th, 2004 Posted in Cailean's Friends, Free Form | 2 Comments »

Merry first Christmas in heaven K, I know your in a better place even though I can?t see you face, I love ya kid

Merry Christmas Buddy

Dec 25th, 2004 Posted in Free Form | No Comments »

Merry Christmas Buddy, I love you. It wouldn’t have been Christmas without a present for you under the tree this morning. I named a star in your memory, “Cailean Walker, Our Buddy.” That star shines for you and it always will. I’ll scan in the costellation map so everyone can see where it is.
Dex loves you too and gets so excited when he sees a picture of his uncle KK.

Christmas without – and yet – with Cailean

Dec 19th, 2004 Posted in Free Form | No Comments »

At this very sad holiday time, I thought I would offer some words of comfort to those who visit this site. They are words that give me some solace and I hope they will help you as well. — Always remember that Cailean is still with us and is watching over us. Most important, he is truly happy. Warm wishes to all with thanks for your comfort and support. Maureen

Thoughts on My Son

Dec 15th, 2004 Posted in Family Posted, Free Form | No Comments »

I have been meaning to express some further thoughts on Cailean as we near the year end and it?s holidays. It is hard to believe that he has been gone 7 months. And yet I wave to him everyday as I pass through the living room. I have discovered that everything in my life has been diminished by his absence, especially the good things. going to a nice restaurant is going without him; watching a movie is watching without him; going to Boston is going without him. The fact that he did not witness the Red Sox beat the Yankees or see the Pistons humiliate the Lakers with me is unthinkable. The idea of playing tennis without him simply does not exist.

About a week after his funeral, I was watching tv with Brittany when i changed the channel to a John Wayne movie called ?THE COWBOYS.? I had seen it a number of times and even liked it but I rarely discussed it or even thought of it because the Duke is sadistically killed by Bruce Dern which is contrary to the laws of nature, or at least my laws of nature. Anyway, we watched the dying scene where John Wayne revives himself just enough to declare to the young cowboys gathered around him ?every man wants to know that his son grows up to be a better person than his father was?..? I was very lucky to witness that moment because I realized that Cailean had achieved that goal for his father.

Yesterday it occurred to me that he and my father might meet in the ?afterlife”. I imagined them walking down a road in Ireland looking for the village where my father?s grandparents had been born. After Ireland, they would travel to Spicewood, Texas in order to visit Poodie?s Hilltop because my hero Billy Joe Shaver would be playing on New Year?s Eve. Billy Joe would invite Cailean on stage and he would be introduced to Eddy Shaver?s spirit. Together they would play guitar. Afterwards, Eddy invited my father and son to travel to Waco, Texas in order to visit the graves of his mother and Grandmother. Cailean would say yes but only if Eddy would agree to join them later as they traveled to Loch Sheldrake, N.Y. That is where his parents and his two sisters had spent their summers in the early 1980?s, unknowingly preparing for the arrival of their future son and brother, the person who would complete the family circle and in turn become the center of their universe: Cailean Walker Sheeran? the best ?BUDDY? there ever was. Thank you Cailean for blessing our lives. with love, John Sheeran. 12/15/2004